This painting was the first I had painted after a long drought. I had been lacking confidence, and hadn't yet embraced my identity as an artist. I called the painting, "Paint Me" after the scene in Alice in Wonderland where Alice discovers a tiny drink labelled "Drink Me" and a piece of cake labelled "Eat Me". The drink makes her shrink, while the cake makes her grow so big that she fills the room, and she has to take little bites and sips to become the correct size to retrieve a key to a tiny door that leads her out into the garden of the Queen of Hearts.
In this painting, I have grown too large for my neat little room. I don't fit anymore into the protective room, and from the door and window I can see a beautiful world enticing me outside. There is a globe, representing the opportunities that lay before me as an artist, but I am sitting curled up with my eyes closed. The painting shows that I have outgrown my safe space, and it seems fairly inevitable that I will move through the door into the beautiful world outside, but I'm a little too big as yet to do so. There isn't any magical "Eat Me" or "Drink Me" size solutions in the room, so perhaps I will have to find the solution within myself....
Acrylic paint on canvas